I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help.
If you're in immediate danger or need someone to talk to right away, please consider reaching out to a crisis helpline or emergency services in your country. They can provide support and connect you with resources that can help you through this difficult time.
Remember, seeking help is a sign of strength, and there is no shame in asking for support. You deserve to be heard, and there are people who want to listen and help you through this. Take care.