I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life.
Please consider reaching out to friends, family, or a counselor for support. If you're in immediate distress or danger, don't hesitate to call emergency services in your country. They are equipped to help you in difficult situations like this.
Remember, there are people who care about you and want to help you through tough times. Don't hesitate to seek support, as talking to someone can make a significant difference.