I'm really sorry to hear that you're experiencing these feelings, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a counselor. They will be able to understand what you're going through and provide appropriate guidance.
If you're struggling with harmful thoughts or urges towards animals or anyone else, it's crucial to seek help immediately. Remember, you don't have to face this alone, and there are people who can offer support and assistance.
If you're in the United States and need to talk to someone right away, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). If it's not a crisis situation but you still want to talk to someone, you can consider contacting a mental health helpline in your country.
Please prioritize seeking professional help to address these feelings and ensure the safety and well-being of yourself and others.