I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's essential to talk to someone who can, though, such as a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life. Remember that you don't have to go through this alone, and there are people who want to support you.
If you're in the United States and in need of immediate help, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) or visit their website at suicidepreventionlifeline.org. If you're located in another country, there are often similar hotlines and resources available.
Please take care and reach out to someone who can provide the assistance you need.