I can offer some general insights into possible reasons why you might feel this way. It's crucial to remember that my response should not replace the advice of a licensed mental health professional if you are facing a difficult or abusive situation.
Feeling numb or unaffected by verbal and emotional abuse can be a response to various factors, such as:
Desensitization: If you have been exposed to prolonged abuse over an extended period, you might have developed a coping mechanism that involves dissociating or numbing yourself emotionally to protect yourself from the pain.
Learned Helplessness: In abusive situations, victims might feel trapped, believing there is no escape from the abuse. Over time, they may start to feel helpless and give up on trying to change the situation, leading to emotional detachment.
Emotional Shutdown: Experiencing continuous abuse can lead to emotional shutdown as a defense mechanism. It's a way for your mind to protect you from the overwhelming emotional distress caused by the abuse.
Low Self-Esteem: If you have low self-esteem or self-worth, you might internalize the abuse and believe you deserve it or that there's nothing better for you.
Fear of Confrontation: You might fear the consequences of standing up to your husband or confronting the abuse, leading you to suppress your emotions to avoid further harm.
It's essential to recognize that emotional and verbal abuse is never acceptable or justified. Nobody deserves to be mistreated or abused. If you find yourself in such a situation, please consider seeking support and help from friends, family, or a professional counselor. Speaking with a therapist or counselor can help you process your feelings, identify coping mechanisms, and explore options for a healthier and safer environment.
If you ever feel that you are in immediate danger, please do not hesitate to contact local authorities or seek emergency assistance.